2hated2care

Not too sure how to take this one.

People talk a lot of shit like they get me,

Wondering why the fuck am I on this high horse?

I’ll be honest, I do use it as a moral excuse.

But isn’t that be the way it should be?

Now let’s be completely honest shall we?

For the most part I’m just scared.

I’ve had people come and go so damn often

I find it hard to just “give” someone this.

Because what if they just leave? Then what?

It’s not something I’m ashamed of…mostly.

I’m a coward for a good reason.

I see something inside me that no one else sees.

Not even her. Something that scares the shit out of me.

I’ve never really given a solid reason for why I am the way I am.

Fuck man those bitches really know how to push my buttons.

Showing me images of violence and horror.

Some shit I just couldn’t bring myself to tell her.

Everyone has a little bit of a fucked up side.

But I’m starting to see how easily she can bring me down.

I just want things to go back to the way they were,

To a day when I had no worry and no doubt.

My heart is weighing far too heavy for me to carry on my own.

I hope that maybe one day she might come my way

But she’s pretty hard headed so I’m not really counting on it.

Things are just getting so damn hard for me right now,

I should’ve just kept my mouth shut…like usual.

She said that it would’ve killed me if not,

But it’s still killing me more-so none the less.

I wish she could see what was right in front of her.

However, they did say that I would die alone

And a violent death as well.

Maybe they’re right, who the fuck knows.

I promised and swore that I’d never leave,

But I’m broken, unsure of how to fix myself anymore.

She’s constantly on my mind it’s getting pretty bad

Whenever I think of her or see her

All I want to do is hold her.

But she said no more, so I backed off…hurting just a bit.

It’s pretty damn crazy

What can happen over the years.

Bitter rivals and loyal friends.

Courting tragedy and finding trust.

We’ve watched each others backs

With clenched fists.

Ready and waiting for the first

Fool to try to take us down.

This is my unbreakable vow.

I will always have a close watch,

I will always protect you.

I will never falter from your love,

I will never ever forsake you.

We’ve had our ups and our downs.

It’s okay though, it’s only natural.

We stuck to our guns

And we sought this through.

You always had the balls to say,

“I’ll fucking kill that cunt.”

I never hesitated to say,

“I dare him to try something stupid.”

This is my unbreakable vow.

I will always have a close watch,

I will always protect you.

I will never falter from your love,

I will never ever forsake you.

Rest assure everything will be chill.

You don’t look it, but I know.

You’re the most brutalist

Chick I know. I got your back.

The only way I’ll ever leave

Is if you tell me too.

The only way they’ll get me to leave

Is to lay my ass to rest.

This is my unbreakable vow.

I will always have a close watch,

I will always protect you.

I will never falter from your love,

I will never ever forsake you.

I’m giving you fair warning.
If you think you know me
And you don’t want to hear
How it truly is.
Then put this shit down
And walk away.
Continue to just see the facade.

For years I’ve always been one
Of Pain’s favorite chew toys.
I’ve always wrote what I wanted to feel
And even some that I actually did.
She told me to find strength from within.
But how the fuck is that possible
With all this pain being inflicted?

I’ve never been so low in my life
And I know it for a fucking fact.
It’s utterly fucking amazing how
One little act of an “empty threat”
Can change everything down the line.
I did what I did out of love and protection.
But now I can never forgive her.

No good deed goes unpunished.
Decency? Loyalty? Respect? Morality!?
All these don’t add up to shit.
Just a pat on the back and a slap in the face.
There’s just a few “heartstrings” left
That I need to severe. Once it’s done,
All will be safer. Because let’s face facts.

“No One=Safe”
Safe from pain and suffering.
Safe from being used and abused.
And left out of the gates to Heaven.
I’m through with all these things.
I can see her drifting, she says she’s not,
But that’s not what I feel.

The fire in my heart is dying.
The cold ice is working its way
Down from the top of my heavy stone
Of a heart, eating away at the flame.
People say it gets better.
I say “bullshit!” It’s a way for
Them to feel they’ve accomplished something.

Like they can just fix the issues at hand
Just by making empty promises.
One they can’t control. No one can.
As I said before, she told me to find strength.
Does killing weakness count at all?
Shut down the networking’s of emotion.
This is how I am.

Now you know the truth.
I’m curious as to who will stay,
Who will go? I won’t hold it against you…
I hope…There’s a monster in us all
And this one is mine. It’s never letting go.
It’s unforgiving and relentless.
You think you know me. You’ll see in time.

The cold metal spacing’s running along my back.

Try to tilt my head to the side. Not an inch.

Look to and fro, wide eyed with what I find.

She’s crying and screaming but without a sound.

Violent bashes against the cage in its chest as her contraption.

A deadly and vile approach. “What is that thing?”

Broad shoulders, obsidian skin,

Deep red eyes and a grin with flesh caught in the jowls.

Looking over me, it waits.

She shakes her head, I make a quick nod.

It waits a moment, I repeat.

Violently and swiftly it crashed its hand on my gut.

Tight grips make my eyes water.

Digging its claws into my belly,

The disembowelment begins, I scream.

My body tenses I can’t move a muscle.

I catch her eyes with mine, she’s gripping the bars tight.

It throws its face into my gut and begins to feast.

An iron grip on my face, it muffles my cries.

I stop struggling, it lets her go.

The cage breaks and she falls out to the side of my mangled corpse.

My eyes have never been so clear.

My clouded vision has been unveiled.

All this time I thought too much with my heart,

Never with any logic to back it up.

One by one they’ll try and gut you where you stand.

Some will even sneak up from behind.

A heart of “love” will be the first to fall.

This “forgiving” heart will be the first to die.

It’s a different kind of weakness,

One for the blind at heart.

I’ve always been so quick to forgive,

So fucking hasted for any kind of love.

Never again will I succumb to such weakness.

Never again will I bleed for another.

Trust me when I say this, it’s better this way.

Raw hatred will be my fuel and malice will be my drive.

A heart of “love” will be the first to fall.

This “forgiving” heart will be the first to die.

It’s a different kind of weakness,

One for the blind at heart.

Some will try to convince me otherwise.

But between you and I, we’re a two different breeds.

A fake faith will bring forth a fake paradise.

Why should love be wasted on ingrates?

Toss me the lynches’ rope,

We’ll have ourselves a black mass sacrifice.

A heart of “love” will be the first to fall.

This “forgiving” heart will be the first to die.

It’s a different kind of weakness,

One for the blind at heart.

This is how it’s gonna go down.

There’s just too much bullshit to bear.

Two months time is all it took,

To catch me by my chin with a rusted hook.

I say I must go now,

Others will tell me to stay.

Isolate this heart of darkness,

From the burning vials of your fake love.

Feasting upon the raven’s heart

I see another backstab in the dark.

You see I must go before I kill you all.

When ashes turns to dust,

So will the blood become cold rust.

Brothers till the brutal end my ass.

What a fool I was to let someone in so fast.

No proof, no alibi.

Just false accusations, leading to my demise.

And I thank you for showing me my true rotted heart.

Feasting upon the raven’s heart

I see another backstab in the dark.

Say your final goodbyes,

My retribution will come swiftly.

Cutting off all ties

Never gonna fall for another fucking lie.

For when the burning legion arrives,

You most of all will witness demise.

In this place that you called your heart,
Broken pieces of my decay.
You said it’s safe so that I can trust.
It’s been two years since I’ve felt such warmth.
You said you’d care for me, it’s too late.
Tried to fix me while I decay.
These broken pieces left from my heart,
Shit it hasn’t even begun to start.

Along these hollow halls of your heart,
I’ll show you where you left me to die.
Executed by your own will,
Shattered stone that will break apart.

Between you and my hollow shell
I’m drifting further into this hell.
I try so hard not to fall apart
But it’s too late for this darkened heart.
So I’ll sit here and wait and bleed,
Anxious from my dying pleas.
I never thought it would get this bad,
I’ll go fetch me my body bag.

Along these hollow halls of your heart,
I’ll show you where you left me to die.
Executed by your own will,
Shattered stone that will break apart.

When I see your wretched face,
Try to mend your broken soul.
It won’t give up. Know not. I won’t give in.
The vary thought it sickens me,
Hatred fed through vanity.
Look what you’ve done to me.
Came to your beckoning call,
Now I know we’ll fall.
I’ll leave you out to die.
Don’t you fucking try
To heal my wounds.
I will cut you down.
Knowing you, it’s just a game.
Breaking now, is all that’s sane.
I know I’ll die alone.
Hell I’ll fucking rot.

And so it goes like this.
I’ll break your soul
For my dark heart.
Say what you are.
We’ve all heard the same.
We’ll rot!
And so it goes something like.
Rip out the heart
It all feels the same.

At this point I see no way out.
Rotting from the inside
Play with some hearts,
It’s all just a game.
I know now that my “good” will fail

Now you die!
Sedate all these fears that you’ve had since the day you were born.
And simply find the path that leads you to your animal instincts.
Now that you’ve found your will to kill everyone in your path.
You must annihilate everything that you just don’t understand.

Kill them all! Let them rot!
Kill them all! Let them rot!
Kill them all! Let them rot!
Kill them all! Start with one!

Born of the simplest men, you find yourself a horrible monster.
Killing everything in your path based on a fucking instinct.
Sadistic bastards never find the path to righteousness.
Only killing for no reason again ,again and again.

Kill them all! Let them rot!
Kill them all! Let them rot!
Kill them all! Let them rot!
Kill them all! Kill again!

Born six feet under with no mark to find your rightful place.
You search inside yourself to find a reason for all of this.
It seems the bodies have over pored above this hollow ground.
No! Six feet will not do!

Kill them all! Let them rot!
Kill them all! Let them rot!
Kill them all! Let them rot!
Kill them all! Let them fucking rot!

It’s all a lie! (Move! Move! Move!)
It’s all a fucking lie! (Move! Move! Move!)
The basic truth is this!
The two are standing by! Holding each others hand!
It’s how we all are brought up!

This wretched whore called love!
It’s what society feeds!
This wretched whore called love!
It’s what society needs!

Think about the basics! Look out your narrow box!
People called a fuck, love! If you gotta get a piece of ass!
Don’t you dare fucking call this love! (Move! Move! Move!)
It’s all a fucking lie! (Move! Move! Move!)

This wretched whore called love!
It’s what society feeds!
This wretched whore called love!
It’s what society needs!